Numb?

You will always be the person that made me think “what if” and I still do and probably always will.

in the other side, I’m really trying to falling in love again. I’m even talking (maybe flirting) with a variety of different guys and I just feel nothing towards them. I can’t be with someone if I feel nothing. I’m afraid I’m never going to feel anything again. I mean, I am happy with the other portions of my life, I just miss the feeling of (pure) love from a 'man', I guess.

I don’t even know what to feel about love life anymore. I’m so confused and numb even though I feel so much. I think the issue is that I don’t know what I’m feeling or what I think. All I know is that I think too much. But I don’t know what I’m thinking about. blaaah >.<

Random thought,

Widiya, a delusional.