Just counting days, the new year will come.
I am here dunno should be happy or not.
This year is very different than two years ago or at least one year ago.
2 years ago, i am very happy i can prepared everything to celebrate new year holidays with him.
New year 2 years ago had become opium for me. The feeling. When i'm with him.
On december 26th, i supposed to be preparing everything to go to jakarta to pass through a holiday and the new year eve with him. But this year? that all no longer exist.
No jakarta or him.
This year there were only me a-l-o-n-e.
Wait, i forgot ...
Two years ago. actually, we were never celebrate new year eve together. When we were in relationship, you pass new year eve with your family. Do you remember? we in the same city and in the afternoon we still together. But we never got through new years eve together. And last year. When we had broke up, you are celebrating the new year with your friend and your family. while I celebrated with kak jidi and her friends. Although in the afternoon we are together. yes, we're still going to pim like previous years. The difference, there no more XXI, and eating crepes.
Going through old memories brings back old feelings. Too many feelings to even begin to understand whats going on, or how to feel, or what to think. It’s like you spent the last 1year pretending to be numb but now your crying because you know you can still feel it, but you don’t want to. But no, I do. I do? You’re an egotistical stubbern asshole
Going through old memories brings back old feelings. Too many feelings to even begin to understand whats going on, or how to feel, or what to think. It’s like you spent the last 1year pretending to be numb but now your crying because you know you can still feel it, but you don’t want to. But no, I do. I do? You’re an egotistical stubbern asshole
but
everything about you is beautifully etched in my mind, body, soul, HEART.
everything about you is beautifully etched in my mind, body, soul, HEART.
so long i was tried to fix everything.
so long i was ingulf raw my ego.
But what i got? nothing. Did you return? no.
I know exactly, i was made him can't stay and surrender.
And i know
there're no guarantees, someone would come back again after we broken they heart so deep. Eventhough they were still(exceedingly)love.
Happy new year, everyone. I hope our personal would be better in the future.
no more pain, no more heartache and dissappoinment.
New year, new day, new record, new story, new life, and maybe new love.
Goodbye 2012, Welcome 2013, please be amazing year.
xxx
xxx
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